A Post on reflection.

Today I realized its been a year since I began my new life, since my trip to Japan and Taiwan; and how much everything has changed, how much I have changed. 

I have friends who actually think I can do things, and actual like me. Really like me, not just put up with me because I can be amusing or I will put up with their horrible behavior.

I can have conversations with other people and not feel like they are judging me as stupid or social misfit.

I open my mouth and say what I KNOW, and I don't see everyone looking at me like they think I am lying that I am making things up.

I don't feel like everyone in the world hates me, save a select few. I feel like a few people like me and the rest of the world just doesn't know me. 

I am not afraid of people hating me, and I am okay with being friends with just one person in a group, even if the rest of that group has decided to hate me. I don't care what other people think of me, especially those who hate me, its a waste of energy to hate and a waste of my heart. For hate is love denied.

I have learned not to curl into a ball when people turn on me, because I don't live up to their expectations of who They think I should be. 

I no longer get angry because some one turns out to be different from what I thought they were, somethings what I saw was an illusion I created.  I should be grateful I got to see reality.

I learned that what people say they want is never what they want, and being what they want only makes them hate you and you will hate yourself.

I am learning to not have my life center only on me.

I am learning how to have a real relationship with people based on life, not scheduled times to talk.

I have fear, hope, and understanding for my unknown future. I am willing to face the unknown without a plan b/c I know I can't really make one.

Its amazing how much a year changed me. I am sorry for what I have lost. My first real love, two best friends, a dream, my faith in people I once trusted, are all things I have lost. New friends, a better understanding of my sisters/my family, happiness, faith in myself, believe in the world not just the world as individuals, and lots of little things are what I have gained.

I can only hope the next year coming up will be just as much of a growing experience for me as this year was. I hope for new friends, experiences, ideas, bad poetry, bizarre moments, and lots of laughter. Thank you to everyone who has made this year wonderful.

P.S. to my readers: If some of you don't love me anymore why do you keep 'following me'?

Quick as Ash Curry.

Woot!!!School is almost over!!!! I am happy though sad, I feel like its the end of things despite the fact I will be back in the Fall , then in the Spring I am off to Kansai Gaidai!!!

 

Here is the dinner I just cooked, I wish I could show you pictures I need to get a camera!!!

 

Ash's Quick Curry for 2

Ingredients:

 

6-10 shrimp (large or medium)

1/2 cup onion chopped finely

1/2 cup potato finely chopped (sweet or Yukon is best)

1/2 cup of other veggies

2 cloves of garlic
1 green chilli
¼ tsp salt
¼ tsp turmeric
½ tsp ground cumin
¼ tsp ground coriander
1 tsp tomato purée
¼ tsp garam masala or 1 tsp curry paste

Directions:

Step 1:  Add 3 tablespoons of vegetable oil. Then add the chopped onion, garlic, and potatoes. fry for 2 minutes.

Step 2: Add Shrimp/Chicken and continue to fry for 5 to 6 minutes. The Shrinp/chicken will start to cook, and turn entirely white on the outside.

Step 3: Add veggies and chilli: Stir. Carry on frying gently over a medium heat, until everything is golden brown, which takes 2 to 3 minutes. 

Step 4: Add spices to the pan. Stir well.

Step 5: Add 1 teaspoon of tomato purée, and 1/4 teaspoon of garam masala or curry paste.

Stir, and fold in yogurt  into the mixture.

Step 6: Mix for half a minute more and then serve on RICE!!!!!!