And the Adventure Begins... AGAIN.

So Despite the fact that this blog has of the last year been a complete monologue of my relationship growth I am going to get this BLOG BACK ON TRACK.

Though honestly I wonder if my relationship building and ultimate fall with Zach wasn't an important part of this adventure all along. By the way if you want to know, its not so bad anymore, so days I have a bad day but most days I don't. Which is great.

So On January 26th 2011 I will be getting on a Plane to Osaka International Airport to begin my semester abroad. I AM COMPLETELY TERRIFIED. But I still haven't started packing, and I have to go get my VISA Done. Its scary.

Mainly because I have this one question I have left. And I feel stupid for wondering but no one tells you anywhere... Is your "company" for your Visa your HOME SCHOOL (Aka Apps) or the school you are doing the exchange with (Kansai GAIDAI)? No Clue and I am terrified to say the wrong one. I should just be a grown up and email Sean. But since I got him the most awkward Christmas gift and he was not so greatly amused (laughing at me for being extra silly) he seemed to take it as a sign of something.... So much for my plan to make my last encounter with Sean (more likely forever) extra special since he, Tifa, and Erin are the last of the great CHANGERS of my life I still talk to, and both Him and Erin are going to be gone (where ever) they go by the time I get back.

What is even more terrible is I never figured out what to get Erin for Christmas... Its hard to get a gift for the most bad-ass amazing person you met. Even though we rarely talk I have to say she changed my perspectives on the world every time we talked.

Now I think I am almost just babbling, basic plot:

I am nervous about studying abroad

I am nervous about everything changing

I am nervous/ sad about more likely never seeing amazing people again.

I wonder if I am any different than when I started all this? Am I better for it?

Me Vs. Monday. Monday = 1, Me= 0

>.< Some days you fail to operate under normal logic. Sunday was my day; spent all day making/building my bento/ quick dinner stocks (studying for Japanese as I did so); and I forget to make my bento, knowing My normal Monday refusal to wake up at a decent hour.

So, College kid bento on the fly (under 3 minutes)! Leftover sausage, onions and peppers sandwich, carrots, grape tomatoes, and pumpkin seeds. This was taken right before I ate it at my desk. There was was Banana chips between my tomatoes and carrots, but I was hungry during my coffee break.

Bento number 1

So bento of fall 2010 Number 1:


First Box: Curried Salmon "salad", rice, steamed carrots and peas, and raw carrots. Scream Style.
Second box: MORE RICE (*dances*), pineapples (crushed because I mistakenly bought them instead of cubes) and room for tomorrows "apple sticks" left from my morning apple.

For those whom (don't exist) want the Curried Salmon "salad" recipe:

Mix curry powder, ketchup and canned salmon to taste. Seriously that is it.

Tuesdays pretending to be Mondays.

Have I ever told you that I have a love/hate relationship with Long weekends? They both are great and the same time they make Tuesday feel like Mondays, which is plain evil.

Though this Tuesday playing at a Monday was decent enough, had a little bit of homesickness kick in. (I seem to have caught this bug this year). I watched Paprika with the Anime club which was amazing and weird. Nice day I guess, this Tuesday pretending to be a Monday

School it has started.

I really do not have anything interesting to say, or so I feel at the moment. Last week classes started, I worked a few hours at work, and was computer-less in theory.

I still checked my email daily and honestly it was refreshing but I know that I need a computer for research and projects that are coming up, so I ordered a new computer, which definitely put me back on some of my SURVIVING JAPAN fund. Which is horrible in its timing to my mind but not to horribly surprising. I am trying very hard to be of the mindset "At least it happened now so I can counter act the monetary loss before I leave. And it could have broke while I was in Japan (which is so much worse of a possibility)."

I am happy, healthy, and pretty much completely prepared for my classes next week. Which in comparison to the usual (pre this summer) me, is pretty amazing as it is only 2pm on Sunday. [Normally I do a panicked attempt at catching up on my weekly readings and MUST DO homework around 6-7pm on Sunday].

How are my loyal readers?

A proud moment

I did not run screaming when I saw him the other day. I feel very very proud of myself. I was sure that is exactly what I would do.

I got parking for my car (with an off campus company)and my computer's motherboard went bad. :(

Long weekend that keeps swinging from good to bad and back again. I am ready for classes to start so I can be busy enough not to worry so much about so many different little things going on. YAY for classes.

A Post on reality

I am leaving for college in three days. Tuesday, Wednesday, leaving Thursdays. Where did my summer go? I don't feel like I have anything physical to show for this summer. It seems to the outside world and sometimes my mind as if its a wasted summer.

Reality has it that somethings have changed on the outside, I have gained back 5 of the pounds I have lost since going to college, the walk is finally edged (It has been since I went to college) the shed is clean, my car is clean (an act of god I know), and I have less acne. <.< Weird thing I know, my dad swears because I am not stressing myself to death anymore.

I gained back my self confidence and my happiness. I first time in the seven years I have known my best friend, fought with her about something. Which on reflection is the oddest thing ever.

I don't know where I was going with this post, other than I was going to get to describing this calm but nervous feeling in my stomach about school this year. I am nervous about it but not really worried about it. A new wonderful feeling, maybe a summer to unwind and place some priority on my own happiness, joy and taking time to de-stress and think through what I say.