Clarity found, once again.

Today was a great day, even when it started off so rocky. I slept through my alarm, and was almost late to my first class of the day, and one of my personal favorites for the semester, Econ. Guess I was up to late sorting out all my weird emotions I didn't know I had yesterday, I really hate those days when you are suddenly overwhelmed with emotions you didn't know you had, and suddenly they are going to drown you. EEEK!

But about today, I don't know what happened but today things just clicked, I am trying to be all Sean like and define the calm-ness/empowerment that my mind just suddenly had but I can't find words at all. Today was amazing, its like the world just was freaking amazing. I did really decent on my Finance Test (a 90) which is great because its one of those classes I love but I still struggle with, and just knowing I am getting it is awesome. I talked to two of my professors in Business and I have my Academic recommendations for ISEP all done more likely early next week. So All I have left really is writing my Personal statement and then translating it into Japanese, and making 5 or 6 copies of my Application to send off and BAM! I am done with my ISEP stuff and am ready to go!

AND the Mentor class, today it went really well, I am now on the Service Committee for the LCC and I am exited, though really nervous, while I like Community Service and I think the wide range of know how that the group has and how much we can do for the people around us I am still nervous about failure. And the hostile that was overwhelming yesterday at the potluck was not there today, I am not saying it wasn't tense, but there was no where the level of malice I felt last night at my very existence, which is a great improvement. 

I am rambling on, and its almost 1 am here, and I need to sleep as my boss wants me in to work tomorrow at 9 am, b/c its more convient for her if I do. Which I think is weird as she never ever sees me at work anyways, if it was my staff co-worker who is pretty much the one I see as my day-to-day  supervisor (basically she isn't the one signing my check) is going to be here all day tomorrow so no problems there. So Yes I need to sleep. I am so excited about Thanksgiving this year, maybe because I think this year no one will have a bad time at home and no insane drama will occur.

SLEEP. I MUST DO IT NOW!